Monday, May 10, 2004

[transmission start]

Thoughts: Dark side of the son.... things about me my mother (and my friends) never knew.

Everyone has their 'dark side'. the part of themselves they want to keep away from other people, the part that nobody should see. The part with all the secrets, the negativity, and in my case, 'the beast'. These things i'm talking about aren't those areas of your life that embarrass you, they're the parts of life that you are really ASHAMED of. the bits that you wish you could erase.

No matter how close to your parents you are (in this case, my mum), there are always things that you will keep from them. always. Mum knows i have the potential to have a terrible temper, and she knows about my stored up anger. but she never knows anything close to 'Visions of Destruction'. I think it would freak her out if she knew that i could actually do something like that...

i can't tell you much about my 'dark side'. that would be going too far, in my opinion. there are some things that people really shouldn't know. Maybe i'll tell you when i think i'm ready. maybe not.

I know my friends care, and they'll say that even if you tell us all this stuff, we won't think of you any differently, but they will. it's not intentional, it's not their fault. i've gone through the same thing. information changes how people respond to us, and that's why in our fear and insecurity, we keep everything inside.

till next time...

[transmission end]

-
chr1s0ng put the word on the street at 8:57 PM
|