Monday, November 06, 2006

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thoughts: inner strength... words and actions... and too much thinking

you know, its really easy to say stuff. to put it into action is an entirely different matter. i guess that's why no matter how well we plan, there's no guarantee of it working out the way we want it to.

it's cliche, but there's a lot of meaning behind "talking the talk and walking the walk". sometimes we think that just by willing ourselves to do it, by continually trying to convince ourselves, we can actually do it - but that doesn't always work. i guess that's where inner strength comes in - without it, its gonna be impossible to do what you said you would. i guess that's why prayer is so important - cos you can't get strength from within. you have to get it from the big guy upstairs.
they say its good to think. but bad to think too much. someone once told me that sometimes its better just to enjoy the ride rather than make sure its going right - because sometimes mistakes and imperfections are makes it enjoyable. Its not about how "smoothly" you get there, but more of the getting there that is something you should look forward to. and much as i try to always keep it in mind, somehow i keep drifting back. insecurity can be a bitch sometimes right

there was once a boy who liked horses, but never had the opportunity to ride one. he had seen them in action, seen how people had ridden them (with all the skills and mistakes they made). he thought to himself "one of these days when i get to (eventually) ride a horse, i'm going to make sure it goes perfectly."

that "one day" did come eventually. as the boy got onto the horse with the instructor, he suddenly remembered all those things he had observed while watching other people ride. so when he started riding, he spent more time trying to stop himself from making all the mistakes instead of enjoying the ride. for him, something enjoyable turned into something stressful. and in the midst of his ride, he missed out on the whole essence of the horse-riding experience.

when the ride ended and he got off the horse, the instructor asked him if he enjoyed the ride. "actually," the boy said, "i would have thought its more than this. i really wanted it to be and that's why i tried to make it as perfect as it possibly could. I didn't want to make any mistakes."

the puzzled instructor, who knew of the boy's love of riding asked,"what were you so afraid of? i was right there on the horse with you wasn't i?"

and then it dawned on the boy that throughout the whole ride that he had forgotten that the instructor had been right there behind him on the horse, and he was the one controlling the horse, not the boy.

moral of the story? sometimes its better just to enjoy the ride....

till nex time...

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chr1s0ng put the word on the street at 8:44 AM
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